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[06 May 2005|08:11pm] last night i got a new lj...my name thingy is razorblade8kiss. so good bye every1!!!! click for love

i actually know who i like now!!!!!...for once in forever.... [01 May 2005|09:08pm] [ mood | energetic ] the dance on friday was okay i guess. yesterday i went to the mall and returned my old dress that i first got for the dinner dance and i got a new one. i like this one soooo much better. and i also got new earring for my tragus. which ended up being a fun 2 hours trying to get them in because i couldnt get the fucking ball in them because they were so small. so today i went back to the mall and got a differnt pair and these ones i could actually get in!!! i felt so accomplished!!!!!!!! other than that i hung out with rachel today and we managed to make up a lyrical dance to the song genie in a bottle by christina agalara dance and around in the middle of the road to it. we also sang the star spangled banner...which im sure everyone can just picture how good it sounded. 5 found love | click for love

world war 3 at my house tonight..............once again [28 Apr 2005|08:37pm] [ mood | okay ] im sooooooo bored. flag was okay tonight. we only ended up marching for like 1/2 because it started to rain..so that kinda sucked i guess. im soooo excited for the dance tm night!!!!!!!!:-D hopefully alot of people go this time. 1 found love | click for love

[28 Apr 2005|04:06pm] [ mood | cold ] owwwwww...my brother just whipped me with this string thingy which happens to be my cats toy and now theres a big red line/bump on my arm so i went to hit him and now im bleeding because i guess i cut myself when i hit him or something. it hurts :(. anyways i have flag again tonite and we are gonna start marching again tonite too. which actually wont be that bad because i kinda want to instead of just running our routine 46414767166 times for 2 hours straight. and its not as cold as it was a few months ago so its not gonna be that bad. i almost like died the other night because there was a fucking spider in my bed. it was sooo scary. so i like started flipping out but then i killed it all by myself with a pencap. i felt so brave and accomplished when i did that. 1 found love | click for love

[25 Apr 2005|09:04pm] would you... 1. Give me your number? 2. Have sex with me? 3. Let me kiss you? 4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one? 5. Let me take you out to dinner? 6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere? 7. Take a shower with me? 8. Be my bf/gf? 9. Have a fling with me? 10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends? 11. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money? 12. Take me home for the night? 13. Would you let me sleep in your bed? 14. Sing car kareoke w/ me? 15. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? 16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions? 17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? Do you... 18. Think im pretty, beautiful, or hot? 19. Like my style? 20. Think im funny? 21. Care about me? Would you... 22. Cry if i died? 23. Stop me if i tried to commit suicide? 24. Dance with me? 25. Sing happy birthday to me? 26. Would u come to a toga party if i had 1? 27. Would u let me live with u if i had nowhere 2 go? 28. would u come over rite now if i asked u 2? 29. would u take me 2 a dance if i havent had my 1st dance? 30. would u die for me or take a bullet for me? 31. would help me run evil espionage missions? 32. what would you do if i I said I loved you? 2 found love | click for love

JOEY JORDISON'S BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!! [25 Apr 2005|08:39pm] [ mood | amused ] today was another fun-filled day at school once again. i just got back from rachel's house a few minutes and and we watched darren's dance grooves!!! lol. we learned how to dance to the song you drive me crazy by: britney spears!!!!! it was sooo fun!!! and we were just fabulus at it too. click for love

[24 Apr 2005|08:13pm] [ mood | bored ] today was another boring day as usual. the preformance for colorgaurd is like less than 3 weeks away. and we only have 3 full practices left because we start marching again on thursdays. im like really nervous for it. hopefully the whole thing will turn out good. my parents are getting really kinda serious about moving to flordia too. which REALLY sucks. ill fucking die if we move there. i dont want to at all. and i dont know how they expect to buy a house because i dont think my dad has a job anymore because he hasnt gone to work in like a month. so idk. w.e 1 found love | click for love

i am bored out of my mind............... [22 Apr 2005|08:25pm] [ mood | bored ] name: nicole birthdate: 12/4/90 birthplace: worcester current location: my house eye color: blue hair color: red righty or lefty: righty zodiac sign: saggitarius...idk how to spell it innie or outtie: innie Describe... your heritage: whats that? the shoes you wore today: red and black converse your hair: short, annoying your eyes: blue your weakness: walking..i fall/tripp ALOT your fears: fishes, spiders, and those fuzzy caterpillers your perfect pizza: hmm....idk What is.... your most overused phrase on aim: like your thoughts first waking up: w.e happened the night before your best physical feature: ...none your bedtime: dont really have one your greatest accomplishment: haha like nothing....making the flag team i guess your most missed memory: umm...fjm? This or that.... pepsi or coke: pepsi mcdonald's or burger king: burgerking single or group dates: depends... adidas or nike: neither---converse!! chocolate or vanilla: vanilla cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino Do you... smoke: no cuss: idk what that means take a shower: everyday have a crush: yes want to go to college: idk yet like high school: not really want to get married: eventually believe in yourself: umm sure get motion sickness: no think you're attractive: definatly notttt think you're a health freak: no...only with brushing my teeth get along with your parents: no like thunderstorms: yes play an instrument: no In the past month, did/have you... smoke(d): no done a drug: no made out: no gone to the mall?: yes eaten an entire box of oreos: i hate oreos eaten sushi: no been on stage: no gone skating: no made homemade cookies: if brownies count..then yes been in love: yes gone skinny dipping: no dyed your hair: yes stolen anything: no Have you ever... played a game that required removal of clothing: no if so, was it mixed company: been caught "doing something": no been called a tease: no gotten beaten up: yes shoplifted: no if so, did you get caught: The future... age you hope to be married: like 30 maybe...idk really numbers and names of children: idk describe your dream wedding: um..like a reguluar wedding where do you want to go to college: idk yet what to think of school at this very moment: dont really want to go back but i miss people what country would you most like to visit: cancun, mexico Opposite sex.... best eye color: doesnt matter best hair color: doesnt matter short or long hair: like mediumish best height: same height as me or taller best weight: not really fat but not really skinny best articles of clothing: idk..shirts? best kiss location: security room in the mall lol Number of... number of drugs youve taken illegally: none number of people I could trust with my life: like 2 or 3 number of cds that I own: like around 25 number of piercings: 5 number of tattoos: none number of times your name has appeared in the newspaper: umm like 2 i think number of scars on my body: 2 or 3 click for love

[19 Apr 2005|08:08pm] [ mood | bouncy ] today i went to the greendale mall and i got my dress for the dinner dance!!! its NOTHING anyone will expect me to wear. im like surprised with myself that i actually like it lol. and i got shoes that im going to attempted to walk in and not kill myself. im like 100 feet tall with them on. i also got some other shit at the mall too. other than i that i managed to piss off my neighbor once again. because i was opera singing out my front window (i thought i sounded good) and he walked by and he told me to shut up. lol i cant wait for fjm this summer. its gonna be awsome. i want to go really bad for like no apparent reason. i just want to get away from everyone and everything i guess. and next summer is gonna be like the best everrrrrrrr. because we have a band trip!!!!!! im like soo excited. we dont know where we are going yet but we are supposivly gonna find out during band camp or sumthing this summer. omgggg i cant wait!!!!! 3 found love | click for love

[18 Apr 2005|10:16pm] [ mood | calm ] my vacation has just been full of fun and excitment so far!!! ive done like just about nothing besides going downtown a few times. yesterday i walked downtown with rachel. it was quite interesting. first this little girl was sitting in her yard and started growling atus as we walked by. lol then these 2 dogs came out of no where and almost killed us. it was soo fucking scary. haha we were like screaming. thennn we went to the swings at the intermediate school and i told her about how i want a minature llama and how i plan on getting one. my plan on how to get a minature llama: getting a regular sized llama thats about to have a baby llama. then once it has it ill take the baby llama and put it too sleep with the help of some fellow surgeons and then cut all of its bones 1/3 of there size then putting all the rest of the bones back together and thenn waking it up and then when it grows it will be 1/3 the size its supposed to be. which will therefor make it a mini one. anyways.....today we walked downtown again and we sang the whole way home and practiced dictation of songs....we were just a tad bit bored. click for love

[16 Apr 2005|02:26pm] [ mood | lonely ] last night was the hypnotist show. it was pretty good. tim hill was soo funny. then after the show me adn rachel stopped at extra mart and bought ice cream and then she slept at my house and we sat on our asses and ate ice cream and started to watch the movie clue. then this morning we finished watching the movie and we ate more ice cream. i usually dont eat ice cream that much but i like ate alot. lol. then the rest of the morning we just acted like complete retards as usual. later on idk what im gonna do but my grandparents are coming over which should be just grand. because thhey like hate me now because they think im "gothic". its really annoying. my mom told me the other day that we might be moving to flordia because my dad can get a job a manager at the car place he works at now. they have talked about moving before and it obviously hasnt happend yet but they are getting kinda serious about it this time. which really really really sucks. because i dont want to move at all. it would be different if i liked moved somewhere else in douglas or w.e but flordia is like 65919195595 miles away. i really hope we dont. 3 found love | click for love

[13 Apr 2005|08:32pm] [ mood | blah ] i had flag tonite. it sucked and it didnt really help that i have a stomach ake and my sunburn hurts and it all itchy and shit. although one good thing did happen tonight....me and rachel each finally stole one of the little yellow flags that are in front of the school!!!!!!:-D we have been saying we were gonna get them since like august and we finally did. click for love

i havent updated in forever.... [11 Apr 2005|06:43pm] [ mood | blah ] not much has been going on lately.. mr dhs last week was AWSOME!!! im so glad pat won. the dance on friday was ok at some points...but the rest of it was quite boring. i felt like shit today. me and rachel and autumn went tanning yesterday for 4 hours (attempted to) and now i have a wicked bad sunburn on my legs and stomach and neck. it hurts soo bad. and i don't think it really help that saturday i was cold so i went out on my back porch with a sleeping bag and fell asleep for 3 hours...haha i wonder what my neighbors thought. VACATION NEXT WEEK!!!!!! im doing nothing really over vaca. though. besides for sunday night me and rachel are going to sh-booms and then sometime during the week i might be going shopping somewhere for my outfits for the dinner dance..or next weekend i might go to n.h with rachel and go shopping out there. that should be real fun....me loooking for a dress.... click for love

[04 Apr 2005|07:40pm] [ mood | lonely ] another survey once again because i am bored out of my mind..... Your Physical Self Female/Male: female Height: like 5'5" ish Hair color: dark red Eye color: blue Body type (slim, average, athletic, heavy): average Skin tone (pale, fair, tanned, etc.): pale/fair What is your dressing style (casual, girly, preppy, goth, rocker, etc.): um..rocker i guess... Basic Questions About Your Love Life Are you single? yes Have you ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes Have you ever KISSED kissed someone? yes How old were you when you had your first crush? no idea Do you currently have a crush? yes If so, why do you like him/her? good personality..hot..funny..cool..easy to talk to.. How do you act around your crushes? nervous and retarded..lol Have you ever told any crushes how you felt about them? yes If so, what happened? idk Have you ever rejected someone? yes Have you ever been called ugly? yes The good stuff (if you've never done these, answer what you would prefer) Rough sex or slow sex? depends.. Kisses with tongue or without? with Slow, soft kisses or rough and hard? slow/soft What was your best kiss like (or wish it was like, if you've never kissed)? security room in mall lol Have you ever had any sexual fantasies involving your crush? no How often do you have them? Do you like to be touched? um..sure Where do you wish your crush touched you? hands..hips..idk Do you like the classic sex position or do you like to try out new ones? im open to new things Have you ever pictured your crush naked? yes lol Have you ever looked at porn? no Do you look at it often? no How often do you feel horny? idk Your Perfect Guy/Girl and other relationship questions Do looks matter? sometimes If you're a guy, do you care about boobs/ass size? If you're a girl, do you care about muscles (buff arms, six pack)? not really Do you want them to be affectionate? suure Romantic? not a ton Cuddly? yes Outgoing or shy? outgoing Talkative? yes Intelligent? doesnt matter...im stupid so idc Good hygiene? yes What should they do when you're depressed? just talk and stuff When you're mad at them? talk Should they ask you what is wrong or leave you alone to cool off? depends Are you the type that needs your space or needs them with you 24/7? a little space Do you want them to put their arms around you in public? sure Would you want to kiss in public? sure Do you want him/her to make the moves? sometimes More talk or more sex/cuddling/kissing? talk/cuddling/kissing Would you want to talk to them everyday? yes Would you want a relationship based solely on sex? no How would you act if you were mad at your bf/gf? idk...it depends on what happend Would you want him/her to play an instrument? doesnt matter...but drummers are always a good thing Do you prefer candlelight dinners or a movie and a fast food dinner? movie is fine What qualities are most important to you in your significant other? funny..hot..easy to talk to..good personality Do you care about their wealth? no What turns you on? smells good...nice ass What turns you off? smells bad..nasty Do you believe in fate? not rly.. Do you believe in God? no Would you mind if your bf/gf believed in a different religion? no Qualities you'd want in a bf/gf - yes or no? Sarcasm: a little Shy: no Quiet: sometimes Loud: sometimes Depressed: no Smoker: no Drinker: idc Funny: yes Sensitive: idc Workaholic: not rly Lazy: idc...i am so it doesnt matter Lustful: idk what that is Intelligent: doesnt matter..im stupid Nerdy: doesnt matter Loner: haha just like me Athletic: doesnt matter Creative/unique: idc Stylish: suure Some final, random questions: When do you want to get married? eventually Do you want to have kids? eventually Do you like little kids? umm..sometimes.. How old are you? 14 Do you believe in online relationships? not really Do you believe in long distance relationships? not really How many close friends do you have? a few If you've been in a relationship, how long was the longest one? like a month lol How about the shortest? like 2 weeks Do you tell your friends about your crush? yes For the Girls (guys can participate too): Choose a Guy. Chad Michael Murray or Brad Pitt? brad pitt Jesse McCartney or Aaron Carter? i cant stand ether Adam Brody or Chad Michael Murray? chad michael murray Orlando Bloom or Brad Pitt? orlando bloom Josh Hartnett or Orlando Bloom? orlando bloom Mark McGrath or Josh Hartnett? josh harnett Ashton Kutcher or Topher Grace? ashton kutcher!!!! Clay Aiken or Ruben Studdard? ruben studdard Ryan Seacrest or Simon Cowell? simon cowell Justin Timberlake or Nick Carter? totally justin Usher or Nelly? usher Last set. S'more random questions. How often do you go online? like 46164 hours each day Do you enjoy school? no What kind of music do you listen to? heavy metal/emo Do you get along with your parents/siblings? not at all click for love

[02 Apr 2005|05:07pm] [ mood | bored ] im soo bored so kattie told me to take this survey thingy...... HAVE YOU EVER... 1. Kissed your cousin: no 2. Ran away: no 3. Pictured your crush naked: no 4. Skipped school: yes 5. Broken someone's heart: yes 6. Been in love: yes 7. Cried when someone died: yes 8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yes 9. Broken a bone: yes 10.Done something embarrassing: yes 11. Lied: yes 12. Cried in school: no WHICH IS BETTER: 13. Coke or Pepsi: neither 14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite 15. Girls or Guys: guys 16. Flowers or candy: flowers 17. Scruff or Clean shaved: clean 18. Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 19. Bitchy or slutty: sluty 20. Tall or short: tall 21. Pants or Shorts: pants 22. Night or Day: night WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: 23: What do you notice first: if he smells good..ass..eyes 24. Last person you slow danced w: cory THE LAST TIME: 26. Showered: this morning 27. Ran backwards: yesterday 28. Went to the movies: like 46168767 years ago lol WHAT IS (your favorite): 29. Your Good Luck Charm: my monkey socks 30. Person You Hate Most: um....? 31. Best Thing That Has Happened to You this year: like nothing.. 32. Color: black/red 33. Movie: the crow 34. Picture on your desktop: idk.. 35. Juice: ice tea..not the real kind cuz tea is nasty 36. Finger: pinkie 37. Ice Cream: vanilla 39. Season: summer 40. Breakfast Food: cheerios..no milk 41. Artist or Band: idk theres alot 42: Food: cheerios WHO... 43. Makes you laugh the most: umm...rachel? lol idk 44. Makes you smile: idk.. 45. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: idk.. 46. Has A Crush On You: like no one 47. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yes 48. Who Has it easier? Girls or Guys?: guys 49. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: not saying... DO YOU EVER... 50. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: no 51. Save AOL conversations: like once 53. Wish you were someone else: yes 54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: idk.. 55. Forward secret e-mails: no BEST... 56. Cologne: um..w/e chris used to wear like last feb. (<--haha rachel lmao) 57. Perfume: glo by j lo..i suppose 58. Kiss: um..bob? 59. Romantic memory: idk.. HAVE YOU... 60. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?: no 61. Fallen for your best friend?: no 62. Made out with JUST a friend?: no 63. Been rejected: yes 64. Been in love?: yes 65. Been in lust?: idk what that is.. 66. Used someone?: no 67. Been used: yes 68. Cheated on someone?: no 69. Been cheated on?: no 70. Been kissed?: yes 71. Done something you regret?: yes...like all the time WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON... 72. You touched?: um...joe w...? 73. You talked to?: i dont really remember... 74. You hugged?: joe k. 75. You instant messaged?: bobert 76. That kissed you?: cory 77. You yelled at?: my dad 78. Who Text Messaged You?: idk.. 79. Who broke your heart?: idk... 80. Who told you they loved you?: joe w. (obviously not anymore) HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU... 81. Color your hair? yes 82. Have tattoos? no 83. Have piercings below the waist? no 84. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? no 85. Own A Webcam? no 86. Own a thong? yes 87. Ever get off the damn computer? yes 88. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? um..ok 89. Habla espanol? si unfortuanatly 90. Quack? do i quack? 91. Stolen anything? yes 92. Smoke? no 93. Schizophrenic? no 94. Obsessive? sometimes i guess 95. Compulsive? idk what that means 96. Obsessive Compulsive? idk what that is ether.. 97. Panic? yes 98. Anxiety? no 99. Depressed? yes 100. Suicidal? i think about it..but no wow im bored... 3 found love | click for love

[29 Mar 2005|05:43pm] [ mood | happy ] i cut my hair today after school!!!!!!!!!!! its like really short. but i like it alot.. im kinda nervous about going to school tomorrow with it. cuz like ive been wearing it like up for a loooooooooong time and i cant even put it up now because its so short. lol. ANYWAYS......i wish sumthing good would actually happen to me for once. like things will start to go good but of course they cant stay like that and they get fucked up as usual. i dont even no who i like anymore....its kinda annoying. haha this entry was sooo pointless. 1 found love | click for love

[28 Mar 2005|08:43pm] [ mood | bored ] once again today was another fun filled day!!!! after school around like 6ish i went to rachel's because i was gonna dye her hair again for her. but we never did. so o well. i might be cutting my hair tomorrow if my mom can get a appointment. :-D. its gonna be in short layers and thinner so i will actually wear it down and stuff. which will be good i suppose. ---rachel, those pictures of me covered in duck tape with matt are deffinatly not going public first of all. and if they do, may i remind you that i still have the pictures of you in the elv outfit and you licking your shoe like a million years ago and you being a hillbilly and the tiger outfit outside with the umbrella. and i'd be just delighted to show them to people. click for love

rachel thanks for all your help yesterday!!!.... [26 Mar 2005|09:34am] [ mood | amused ] yesterday i went to rachel's casa for a few minutes and her brother matt attacted me with ducktape and taped my legs and arms and everything else. and of course rachel just sat there and watched me the whole time. then matt thought it was funny that i couldnt get any of the tape undone so he decided to take pictures!! it really sucked. then later on we went outside and practiced flag and rifle for a while and then we watched this awsome movie called the clubhouse. which featured the cabbage patch kids. haha it was so cool. then she went home for a while and then i went back to her house and we started watching the movie thirteen but it was really stupid so we stopped it then we walked to my house and watched alice in wonderland. it was quite exciting. lol i have no life. 3 found love | click for love

eating fruit loops... [24 Mar 2005|04:31pm] [ mood | dorky ] today has been quite exciting so far. i guess. well first rachel got locked out of her house so she came to my house and we watched this show called zoom. haha its so funny. there is like all these little kids that play games and sing and stuff. and they had this sign language kid on it and now i know how to say best friends...clapping/applause...screaching..and vibraions in sign language. lol. o ya.. then we took my magazine i got in the mail and found all the hot guys in it. sooo exciting!!!! then in like a hour i have to leave and go to band practice. i don't feel like going at all. but "people" will be there so that makes it a little better i guess. idk how some one can feel dorky but i love that star thingy's glasses...they r so cool so thats why i put it. 1 found love | click for love

[22 Mar 2005|07:56pm] [ mood | bored ] today was really boring once again. although im actually happy about some things for once in my life. i almost bought a shirt today that said cheerio's on it but of course they only had one left and it was like extra gigantic so i obviously didn't get it. cheerios are so yummy!!!!!! if anyone wants to make plans or do something let me know because since we don't have any parades til may..i'll be doing absoutly nothing on the weekends as usual because i have no life. i <3 *him* 3 found love | click for love

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